i need to update but i dont know what to write. I LOVE RAIN! but it better stop before tomorrow becuase i dont want to be wet in my school picture, thats for sure. my mom frusturates me. i want my sisters to come home right quick!

i love elliott smith so much, seroiulsy listening to him while it's raining just makes you feel like you should curl up into a ball and die, but...in a good way? i dont know hahaha his music's very depressing but i love it, its very rain appropriate.

the end. this entry=balls, but oh well. DEAL WITH IT, BITCHES!!!

x! x!-naomi-!x !x

01. I have never kissed someone of the same sex.
02. I see a therapist.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am drawn to things associated with sadness.
05. I love my gauged earrings.
06. I wear black eyeliner every day.
07. I am extremely influenced by kindness.
08. I love to write, even though I think I suck at it.
09. I can't live without lipgloss.
10. I’m probably emotionally scarred.
11. I lived in Tahoe.
12. I spend money I have.
13. I'll be in college for over 4 years.
14. I love designer handbags.
15. I’ve had a concussion before.
16. I'm not good with confrontation.
17. I loved the Backstreet Boys.
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi.
20. I’m spiritual… but not religious.
21. My first kiss was unexpected.
22. I start school on Jan 4th or 5th.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. When I allow myself to get close to people, I get very attached.
27. I am bisexual.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes.
29. I've seen She’s All That at least 50 times.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. I love Charmed.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are ridiculously late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. Winter is my favorite season.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.
38. I wish I were smarter.
39. I believe that it is wrong to be gay.
40. I have a lot of drama.
41. No one really knows me.
42. I love my hair.
43. I sometimes fight with my parents.
44. I am passionate about my interests.
45. I have had the chicken pox.
46. I'm a hopeless romantic.
47. I feel empty sometimes.
48. I am/was clinically depressed at a point in my life.
49. I am addicted to coffee.
50. I am very outgoing.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure.
53. I don't notice it, but I'm told I'm very softspoken.
54. I hate ignorant people.
55. I love my laptop.
56. I love guys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person.
59. I'm extremely mellow.
60. I contemplate suicide.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous.
63. I like to play video games.
64. I love John Mayer.
65. I get more upset when I see an animal hurt than a person.
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I am too forgiving.
70. I have a good sense of direction.
71. I love school.
72. I've played a musical instrument for more than 5 years.
73. I tend to feel inadequate.
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color blue.
76. I sew.
77. I am addicted to drugs.
78. I wear contacts.
79. President Bush is a complete and utter moron.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I don't take criticism well.
82. Conformity is stupid.
83. Chris Carrabba is one of the suckiest men alive.
84. So is Conor from Bright Eyes.
85. I love my family.
86. I don't mind getting shots.
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
89. I can be too hard on myself.
90. I don't like my nose.
91. I am very religious.
92. I still act like a little kid.
93. I am ridiculously indecisive.
94. I believe in a higher power or some form of an afterlife.
95. I love music.
96. I'm in love.
97. I have problems letting go of people.
98. I tend to think with my heart more than my head.
99. I don't really like ice cream.
100. I can't live without books.
101. If my house burned down, I'd try to save my cats.
102. I hate the town I live in.
103. I hate wearing my hair loose.
104. I only dance when I'm drunk.
105. I still sleep with my old stuffed toys.
106. I spend more time alone than with other people, and I like it that way.
107. I love angst
108. I've written for twelve hours straight.
109. I hate things emo and angsty
110. I'm addicted to an online RPG.
111. I have had a cavity.
112. I believe letting go sometimes is the best thing to do
113. I can't live without my headphones
114. I like kissing the same sex more than the opposite
115. I have had to wittness a divorce
116. I fight for what i think is right
117. I'm related to someone famous
118. I like spooning better than making out
119. I've had over 10 boyfriends
120. i've known my best friend for over 4 years.

I'm like...so caught up in my emotions right now. Some poeple reading this know what i'm talking about, but not a lot i don't think.  it's just so weird when you have so many conflicting emotions inside you all the time and you don't know which way to feel.  it's weird how one person can affect you and change you and you not even matter to them.   how they can like, consume your thoughts yet you know you are no where near their mind. rawr. it's frusturating.

and like, when you really want/need to talk to someone and there's absolutely no way to contact them at all and..just...i don't know. i can't put too much of waht i'm feeling on here becuase it's on my info but...yeah.  i just...am very emotional. considering a certain person. that i will most likely not see again anytime soon. mehhh...

im just listening to Elliott Smith, and it's cloudy, and I'm home alone, and i just want to curl up in a little ball and shut everything out but at the same time i know i can't.  mngklajfaskl;fjas the end.

ready

set

school is SO soon